[Alumni Guest Post] Toward God’s Love

R. Julie Gordon (PEP '12) recollects:

Here are some of my thoughts after my experience davenning with Women of the Wall (WOW) on May 10, 2013.

Rabbi Julie Gordon praying with Women of the Wall

Rabbi Julie Gordon praying with Women of the Wall

I was exhilarated on the day after my bat mitzvah when I learned how to lay tefillin through the wisdom and care of Bert Cooper, z”l, our Albert Lea, MN para-rabbi. I felt empowered and joyful. Safely ensconced in our community and our shared relationship with God. My Baba had given me my Zayde’s tefillin. On that day when I held them in my hands, we both cried. She said, “Zayde would be so proud that you will be using his tefillin as he laid tefillin six days a week.” I remember those words every day as I wrap them around my arms, even now 40 years later, the soft leather straps worn thin and replaced twice. The scrolls checked and rechecked by sofrei stam. I am the only person on my mother’s side of the family who lays tefillin and I do it with care.

Last week, on my 56th birthday, I was preparing to lay my Zeyde’s teffilin, and to wrap myself in his memory, as I feel commanded to do this mitzvah. But, for the first time, I felt afraid. Continue reading

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[Alumni Guest Post] Choose Wisely!

Tamara Frankel (PEP '09-'11) is in her second year of
teaching at Chicagoland Jewish High School.

tfIt’s one of the first sunny days in Chicago this spring and my students beg me to take them outside for class. We negotiate and decide to review our homework in class, on the board, and then go outside to start the next sugya. Eleven rambunctious and extremely insightful freshmen sit on the grass beside the bleachers while I stand up top. I ask my students to imagine that they are at the foot of Mount Sinai and that God is holding the mountain over their heads, expecting—maybe even threatening—them to accept the Torah. If not, they will die.
 
My students think I’m crazy. I tell them that Rav Avdimi recounts this dramatic “filling-in-the-gaps” of a pasuk in Shmot 19:17: “ויתיצבו בתחתית ההר”  “And they [the Israelites] stood at attention at the foot of the mountain”. For a moment, I’m off the hook; I could never make up this story! Continue reading
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[PCJE Dvar Torah] From Desert to Dessert: a Shavuot Reflection – by Tani Cohen-Fraade

482032_653224635726_553887523_nIn Rabbi Meir Schewiger’s Parashat ha-Shavuah (weekly Torah Portion) class, while learning Sefer Shemot (Book of Exodus), we spoke about the desert as a place where one goes to prepare for Torah study. When B’nei Yisrael (Children of Israel) leave Egypt, they flee through the desert and are on the run until they get to Yam Suf (Red Sea) and cross to safety. Even after getting to Har Sinai (Mt. Sinai) and receiving the Torah, they still spend another 40 years in the desert wandering and preparing to enter into the Land. On the festival of Shavuot, we celebrate Zman Matan Torateinu (our receiving of the Torah at Sinai). We have just finished counting the Omer, the period of time from Pesach up to Shavuot and while we have now received the Torah and have celebrated this by a long night of learning and Torah study, B’nei Yisrael is still in the desert. For the rest of this year, leading up to the Yamim Noraim (Days of Awe) and Simchat Torah, we will continue to follow them as they travel through the wilderness in preparation for their entry into Eretz Yisrael (Land of Israel). I liked the idea of the desert as a place for preparation and when I thought back over the last few years of my life I began to like it even more.

In the fall of 2010, I had been living and working at home in Connecticut, teaching in the Jewish community for a year after graduating college and I was ready for a change. I volunteered with the Kibbutz Program Center and after consulting with friends of friends, was placed on Kibbutz Yahel in the very south of Israel, about a 40 minutes north of Eilat in a region called the Arrava. Arrava means wilderness and this was exactly what I found when I got there. This was the absolute middle of Continue reading

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Face to Face at Sinai

From my blog:
Moses Shows the Tablets of the Law,  by Marc Chagall

Moses Shows the Tablets of the Law, by Marc Chagall

Two brief teachings by R. Kalonymus Kalman HaLevi Epstein on Shavuot, excerpted from Maor vaShamesh

ויחן שם ישראל נגד ההר And Israel camped there under the mountain. Exodus 19:2

Rashi points out that ‘camped’ is in the singular, and explains they camped there ‘as one person with one heart.’

To receive the Torah, the essential thing, on which everything else depends, is that there be love and brotherhood among the children of Israel, as our sages said, ‘The entire Torah depends on the mitzvah of ‘love your fellow as yourself.’ For when there is peace among us, the divine Presence rests among us, since the totality of our souls equals 60,000, the number of letters in the Torah, for we each have our soul’s root in one of the letters of the Torah — and this is hinted at by the very word ישראל ‘Israel,’ which stands for Continue reading

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[Alumni Guest Post] A Holy Stranger with Open Arms

Alissa Thomas (Spring '11) blogs about relating to
Jewish Converts, inspired by her own father:

There is nothing like seeing my father dressed head to toe in all white.

His soul hearkens to the time of the Kabbalistic rabbis who, draped in white clothing, would sing Kabbalat Shabbat in the fields. I imagine my father in his Shabbat white watching the sun set with his arms spread like angels’ wings and his heart leaping out of his chest toward his Creator. It is quite a breathtaking sight.

My family takes the Kabbalistic practice of wearing white clothing on Shabbat and many chagim very seriously. Every family member has a section of his or her wardrobe for the special white pieces, including shoes. We appreciate the physical expression of spiritual openness and humility; but my father has always had a special relationship with this practice. Continue reading

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My Dvar on Mishpatim from Chabad House on Campus’ Student Shabbat 2011

The University of Pittsburgh’s Chabad House, run by two of my heroes, R. Shmuel and Sara Weinstein, is one of my favorite places on earth and one that has had an inestimable impact on my identity as a Jew. Once, when in late January 2011 they took a very rare Shabbat away, we students decided to take the opportunity to make Shabbat on our own. All the regulars took on different tasks; I volunteered to help set-up and give the dvar Torah below.

 

This week’s parsha is Mishpatim, or as its sometimes called, Where the Torah Starts to Get Really Boring, because this is the point where the Torah shifts abruptly from being about fantastic stories of our ancestors to being, except for Numbers, little else than lists of seemingly random laws. Even worse, this list comes immediately in the wake of the drama and excitement of the Revelation at Sinai—thunder, lightning, smoke, loud shofar blasts, the Voice of God, a nation trembling in fear, then…civil legislation! What gives?

Like any good speaker on Torah, I’m going to answer this question in a very roundabout way. Starting with this: Continue reading

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[PCJE Dvar Torah] Mishpatim: Seeing our Personal God (by Leah Kahn)

In last week’s Parsha, Yitro, we left B’nei Yisrael at Mt. Sinai, having just received the Ten Commandments directly from the mouth of God. Most would agree that they are reasonable commandments, which aim to help this newly freed people maintain order and positive values as a newly minted nation. Switching gears immediately from the pomp and circumstance of Yitro to the ostensibly mundane detailed laws of Parshat Mishpatim, we read of Moshe placing the laws before B’nei Yisrael: “And these are the laws that you [Moshe] shall place (תשים) before them.” (Ch 21:1). In a very straightforward manner, Rashi explains that Hashem commands Moshe to place the laws before the people, along with their explanations, just as one would set a table, with all its food ready for eating. In other words, Moshe’s responsibility is to make sure that each person knows the new laws and their underlying principles and meanings, so that the people would be able to apply them properly, and immediately, in various “halachic” situations. For two chapters, the Israelites are presented with dense legal information, and undertake the burdensome task of trying to learn and understand them. They must have been extremely inspired, for why else would they have invested so much time and effort to learning the new lay of the land? The exciting conversations that must have ensued probably sounded a lot like our Pardes Beit Midrash discussions, as the people tried to understand the new laws and their importance.

 

Then in Chapter 24, Moshe anoints the altar with the blood of a bull and throws the rest of the blood on the people. He reads the Book of the Covenant within earshot of the people, and they proclaim, ונשמע נעשה (we will listen and we will do). Mazal tov! You are now a people. One can almost see them stepping on a glass as the band starts up and the dancing begins. As Moshe, Aharon, Nadab, Abihu, and the seventy elders ascend Mt. Sinai to see God, B’nei Yisrael is left behind to process what has just transpired. Feasting commences, as the 11th verse states that, “…they gazed at God, yet they ate and drank.” According to Onkelos this feasting was favorable, as it enhanced the joy they felt upon seeing the visage of Hashem, and enabled them to physically enjoy the experience. Ramban also comments on what a significant spiritual privilege it was for the people to have been allowed by God to see their redeemer, the master of the universe.

But there seems to be a large imbalance in the Parsha. The Tanach spends two full chapters explaining the laws that B’nei Yisrael must learn in order to be a society, and only half a verse describing B’nei Yisrael looking and gazing upon God. How can such a noteworthy event get such little press? I believe there is a message for us in this purposeful inconsistency, that we modern, halachically-minded Jews should learn. Rules and laws are necessary in order to keep a society functioning through order and structure, that’s a given. As Rabbinic Jews though, we often times get very focused and caught up in the law without simultaneously turning enough of our “gaze” to God. All too often we forget to talk about not just God, but our vision of a personal God, and the status of our relationship with God. I imagine that after B’nei Yisrael sees God, they must have discussed their feelings about the experience to no end, and shared in the joy of this climactic Jewish historical event as a community. Yet the Torah doesn’t write about this.

I have shared a myriad of Shabbat meals with close friends and fellow Jews, the kind of meals that could only be created with an understanding and adherence to the laws of Shabbat. Out of all those Shabbatot, I can count on one hand the number of conversations I’ve had about personal concepts of God and the status of our relationship with God. As a community, I think we would benefit greatly if we learned to discuss our personal perception of the God we envision in our lives. Mishpatim tricks the reader into thinking that the emphasis is on law, when it actually wants to call our attention to B’nei Yisrael’s gazing on Hashem. By minimizing this part of the story, the Torah has actually maximized it. While we are clearly an extremely detail-oriented people, very focused on the laws, we need to remember to turn our focus towards God. By being in a relationship with God (however one defines God) the meaning of the laws maintain clarity and meaning in our lives. Without the infusion of spirituality within law, we run the risk of becoming empty followers who miss out on the bigger picture.

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[Alumni Guest Post] Tricky Number Ten

Rachel Bikofsky (Summer '12) wrote a reflection
on last week's Parshat Hashavuah (Parshat Yitro).

We could all stand to take this lesson from her book:

As parshiot go, this past week’s–Yitro–was a Big One.  Amid tremendous spectacle at Mt. Sinai, Hashem revealed to the Israelites the Ten Commandments.  Although the rest of the Torah would not be given until later, this first phase was monumental in its own right.  For a full translation of the Commandments, visit this page…but, for the sake of brevity, I’ll give a quick recap:

  1. I am Hashem, your G-d.
  2. You shall have no other gods besides Me.
  3. You shall not take the Name of Hashem in vain.
  4. Remember the Sabbath Day and keep it holy.
  5. Honor your father and mother.
  6. You shall not murder.
  7. You shall not commit adultery.
  8. You shall not steal.
  9. You shall not bear false witness against your neighbor.
  10. You shall not covet. 

Commandments 1-4 are pretty essential to the essence of Judaism, so it seems logical that the list would lead with these.  Regarding Commandments 6-9, these are critical guidelines for morality, not to mention vital to the safety of the community and the maintenance of public order.  Although I’m sure no one enjoys a completely conflict-free relationship with his or her parents, it does make sense that (except in the most extreme circumstances) it is a child’s duty to honor his or her parents by respecting them and providing them with what they need, materialistically and emotionally, as they age.

But what about Commandment # 10?
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Week of Majesty

Originally posted to my blog last week before Shavuot:

This week was the week of Joyceee
It was also the week of Majesty
I barbequed, I went to different natural springs, and I danced!
I was at a baby naming :) and now we will always be reminded how much of a Blessing Jerusalem is!

We are approaching Shavuot where we receive the Torah anew. We get to relive that experience. The three days beforehand are reserved for preparations – spiritually and physcially. The supermarkets bring in an extra portable refridgerator stocked with cheeses and other dairy products. Teachers and friends are preparing teachings to share, and people go to dip in the mikvah.

I remember two ideas that I read in the Eish Kodesh about Shavuot. These ideas make G!D seem like he operates under the same rules that we humans do. Perhaps.

The first is related to the fact that upon receiving the Torah we saw the sounds. He explains that whenever a teacher teaches he is also learning as well. We know (in our human way) that one is expected to preserve the distinction between the Oral Torah and the Written Torah by not to reciting words of the written Torah by heart. In the description of the event of Sinai, even G!D was learning the Torah, so when G!D spoke the words of the Torah to us, G!D also ‘read’ the words to us. We saw the written words! We were able to see the sounds! And so, if G!D was learning while he was teaching us the Torah, then we too are always learning even while we may be teaching.

And this is a blessing!

The second idea is related to revelation. Every time I truly speak I reveal part of my soul. Therefore – whenever one captures the words spoken – on paper or in a recording – only part of the experience has been captured. During the revelation at Har Sinai G!D truly spoke to us, and our souls were forever marked. This is exactly what happens every year on Shavuot – we don’t only remember what happened, rather we relive what happened, and our souls are also marked by the word of G!D. This can even happen every day to anyone who opens himself to an O[o]ther with true speech.

When you devote your entire being to God,
  even your words themselves become God’s
           SO SPEAK!
                 – Fow Ti

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Shavuot: An Inspiration For Converts

(x-posted from my blog Lost in Jerusalem: http://lostjlem.blogspot.com/)

Now that Shavuot has come to an end (well, for those of us in Israel, anyway), the complete cycle of my first year as a Jew has also drawn to a close. I have been fortunate enough to have my first experiences as a Jew with every one of our holidays in the Holy Land, which is really something special. Not every new Jew gets to jump on an El Al flight just weeks after conversion to live in Jerusalem. I guess there’s no better way to make sure that you’ve joined the correct tribe than to live among the natives.

Shavuot holds a special place in my heart. It may not be as fun as Purim is, what with all its booze, encouraged public drunkenness, costumes and acting a fool in shul by blotting out Hamon’s name as we recount the story of Esther. It may not be as profound as Yom Kippur, when we fast the day away, admit to our flaws and sins, and seek forgiveness from everyone we’ve wronged and from the King of Kings Himself, wiping the slate clean for another year. It may not be as significant and grandiose as Pesach, as we recount the story of overcoming slavery with the guidance of the hand of the divine over our chametz-free seder tables. And it’s certainly not as odd and quirky as Succot, as we dwell in Sukkahs out in our yards or on our patios, shaking the four species in all cardinal directions (during my conversion, as I was Continue reading

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