WxW 30/30 #1: From Start to Finish

From my blog:

Thanks to The Velveteen Rabbi for alerting me that http://wordxwordfestival.com/ is having a 30 poems in 30 days contest.  (I don’t think there are prizes but they do publish poems on their website, if you submit them.)  I have subscribed to http://3030poetry.com/ for the daily prompts and have begun!  I can’t guarantee I will write a poem a day but I like the idea so I got started with this haiku on the prompt “From Start to Finish”.

Noticing the breath
inhale, exhale, cool and warm
Tzimtzum over and over

This poem was inspired by the meditation practice I have begun since Stu and I attended the Or HaLev and Awakened Heart Project silent meditation retreat at Kibbutz Hannaton.

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[PCJE Dvar Torah] Jeff Amshalem — Circles and Lines: the Maor vaShamesh on Parshat Beshalach

An abridged version of a teaching from R. Kalonymus Kalpan Halevi Epstein, the Maor vaShamesh.

וַתִּקַּח מִרְיָם הַנְּבִיאָה אֲחוֹת אַהֲרֹן אֶת הַתֹּף בְּיָדָהּ וַתֵּצֶאןָ כָל הַנָּשִׁים אַחֲרֶיהָ בְּתֻפִּים וּבִמְחֹלֹת: וַתַּעַן לָהֶם מִרְיָם שִׁירוּ לַי־הֹוָ־ה כִּי גָאֹה גָּאָה סוּס וְרֹכְבוֹ רָמָה בַיָּם                

Miriam the prophetess, the sister of Aaron, took a timbrel in her hand, and all the women went out after her with their timbrels and dancing. And Miriam called out to them, “Sing to the LORD, Who is most exalted; horse and rider He has thrown into the sea.”     Exodus 15:20-21

Why does Moses say I will sing to the LORD, in the future tense, while Miriam says Sing to the LORD, in the present tense?

It seems there is a hint in the teaching from the Talmud that “In the future the Holy One of Blessing will hold a dance for the righteous, and will sit among them, and each of them will point to God, saying, “This is God for Whom I have hoped.” We can understand the connection if we look at how the cosmos was made. Continue reading

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Prayer for Comfort

Thanks to Joseph Shamash for leading an inspiring Creative Shacharit this morning!

We spent time practicing the Desire meditation from James Jacobson-Maisels’ Self, Soul and Text class, then were given paper and pens and markers to express what came up for us in the form of a drawing or a prayer, etc.

Here is what came for me:

Rachamim

Here is what came for me:

Holy Rachamim, who holds all of creation

I long for comfort.

Your deep, warm womb

The feather-caress of Your great, white wing against my cheek

Your whispered promises in my ear

in my heart

Shechina, Tzimtzumai who birthed all my ancestors and me

I yearn to come home to You

held in You in each moment

supported

tethered from my centre to Yours

fed on love and life and holiness

able to see the world

through the veil of Your body

that my own sharp edges

be softened

my bones be cushioned

my tender heart be coddled

so it can rest

assured of new days, and moments of wonder and blessing to come.

Mama, bless my tears with Your warm hand

help me to feel cleansed, refreshed, renewed

and ready

to face the world on my own feet

grounded in Your earth

on this and every dawning day.

Amen.

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You can find more of my writing on my website: http://www.anniegilbert.com/writing.html

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Tzimtzum Poems

I have been prompted twice this year so far to share these poems – once inspired by Rav Landes Shabbat Shuva Shiur and then after I read them at Salon Pardes.

I wrote these as part of my final project for an Aleph Rabbinical School class exploring the concept of tzimtzum in Jewish texts.  My aim was to weave together images and understandings from the class.  You can find more of my poetry on my website: http://www.anniegilbert.com/writing.htmlTzimtzum Moment

Artist Statement:

The first poem is a journey through Tzimtzum imagery.  Exploring Lurianic and Nahmanic creation stories, as well as other Tzimtzum motifs.

One of the reasons I took the course was because of an affinity for Tzimtzemai as a name for Gd.  The second poem is an interplay between the story I learned in Kohenet about the journey of Tzimtzemai/Shechina from the broken temple into exile in the wilderness where she is waiting for our return and the themes of Tzimtzum we explored in class.

1.

Precise moment of Gd

Glowing orb

In the very centre of the universe

Radiant light of the cosmos

Honed to a pricking point of judgement

The sharp tip of Michael’s sword

Guarding the corners of Eden

The gateway to the Holy of Holies

The keruvim hold the space inside space

The closeness between them a charged emptiness

Filled with Gd

They tighten their embrace

Electric air crackles and sparks

Exploding the very vessels of creation

Leaving shards of perfect imperfection

Under the curtain

And scattered across the floor

Each shard is porous

Like the skin cells

Of the hand of Gd

Held against my forehead

To shield my eyes

From the blinding rays of universal light

Concentrated to a bright speck

Against the expanse of the sky

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Are you a Lonely Man or a Social Man?

As most of my fellow Pardesnicks have probably gathered at this late date in the semester, I’m what one might call “quiet.” It’s not that I don’t speak up in class or won’t engage in conversation (if you strike one up first, of course). Rather, my quietness is an overall demeanor. I’m not a smiley person, and my facial expressions are what I like to call “subtle.” Crowded social gatherings make me stiff and awkward, because they require me to be, well, social. This is doable for me in small groups. However, the larger the group gets, the quieter I get. It’s not intended as an act of disengagement and it’s not because I don’t like people. It also certainly is not because I think that I’m too cool to let loose and be boisterous once in a while. It’s really a leftover trait of childhood bashfulness that morphed into nearly debilitating social anxiety at the onset of puberty, which lasted well into adulthood. It’s only been for the last couple of years that I’ve been able to train and force myself just to be this outgoing. I know, I know; I’m not exactly Little Miss Sunshine. I’m more of a Little Miss Moon…beam, or something.

In the last Relationships class with Tovah Leah, we discussed the role of the individual and the community, and the tension between the two, and the sacrifices we must make to obtain some sort of balance Continue reading

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