Musings from Students of the Pardes Institute of Jewish Studies in Jerusalem
Posted on July 26, 2015 by Eva Neuhaus
See more from Eva on her blog. On tisha b’av we remember the ways that turning away from the Holy One and each other led to the destruction of the first and second temples. I am reminded of a visit with my friend and mentor julie portman toward the end of her journey with cancer. Continue Reading »
Posted on November 10, 2014 by Eva Neuhaus
From my blog: i just came through a month of feeling totally disoriented by judaism and wondering what the hell i’m doing in rabbinical school. here’s what i learned: 1. sometimes what’s called for is to follow the feelings of disorientation all the way down the rabbit hole. there have been times recently where i Continue Reading »
Posted on September 1, 2014 by Eva Neuhaus
All the month of Elul before eating and sleeping let every man sit and look into his soul, and search his deeds, that he may make confession. (S.Y. Agnon, Days of Awe, citing Maharil) Last week I had an epic fail. I think failures are precious—especially the big ones— because they offer a huge window into the Continue Reading »
Posted on June 5, 2014 by Eva Neuhaus
In preparing the people for revelation (Exodus 19), God tells Moshe that God will appear to the people at Sinai, then describes the necessary stipulations: “Go to the people and sanctify them today and tomorrow. Let them wash their clothes.” Then another mention of God’s coming to Mt. Sinai, followed by more constraints: “On the Continue Reading »
Posted on May 30, 2014 by Eva Neuhaus
Here are some reflections that I shared at the final community lunch of the year: “libun” is the process of making something kosher by heating it to a high temperature. “libun” means “to whiten” and refers to heating metal until it grows white; it also means “to purify.” studying talmud this year was like taking Continue Reading »
Posted on April 28, 2014 by Eva Neuhaus
Most of my family on both sides was killed in the Holocaust and those who were left scattered all over the globe. I spent many years feeling that in order to honor my family members who were murdered, I had to suffer as well. There was a certain threshold of delight past which it felt Continue Reading »
Posted on April 22, 2014 by Eva Neuhaus
the relationships we have with our parents form a template for our relationship with the Divine. i grew up giving my parents a very hard time, constantly bucking their authority. we fought all the time. this power struggle is present in my relationship with God, as it is in my relationships with everyone and everything. here Continue Reading »
Posted on September 28, 2013 by Eva Neuhaus
i am convinced that judaism contains within it all of the spiritual technology we need to heal the wounds we have experienced in the history of our people. i notice the survival patterning in my body–my inability to stop running and striving and lurching forward for fear that i will die–how hard it is for Continue Reading »
Posted on September 13, 2013 by Eva Neuhaus
My friend Adam Mayer posed a question that stuck with me through the Days of Awe: What is the most effective way to do teshuvah? How can we forgive ourselves and others completely? Here are some of my reflections: 1. The fact that we’ve done bad things doesn’t make us bad people. Examining our shortcomings Continue Reading »