[PCJE Dvar Torah] ‘Sacrificing Our Time’ by Aliza Geller

Devar Torah Workshop, Parashat Emor

Over the past couple of weeks, students in their first year of the Pardes Center for Jewish Educators have been participating in a Devar Torah workshop with DLK (Rabbi David Levin-Kruss). This is the Devar Torah I wrote to be presented at the workshop yesterday, for Parashat Emor. Please keep in mind that this was written for middle school students and it is written to be read aloud. Emor has a many parts and it was hard to decide what to focus on, especially since I needed to find something Continue reading

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Why I am Making Aliyah

April 15th, 2013

It’s Erev Yom HaAtzma’ut and just a few days ago I had my first meeting with Nefesh b’Nefesh, an agency that works for North American Jews intending on immigrating to Israel. My application is in, and a few more papers are needed, but the decision has been made. I am making Aliyah to the State of Israel.

I have been grappling with this decision for a long time. My family lives very far away, but even farther away from following any sort of path that vaguely resembles my own. My decision feels like signing a contract of fate: to always being distant from them. It doesn’t mean that I will literally be cut off, nor are they disavowing their filial connection or love for me. But I am ensuring that my parents will never have a close relationship with their grandchildren, my brother’s children will never be regular playmates of mine and I may not always be able to afford to come and see them every year. I am hurting us both. I take it all very seriously. Even the concept of this sacrifice has quite frankly been too much for me to bare in the last few months I have been chewing on the decision. In order to become part of my greater Jewish family, I must Continue reading

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Why Fast for Ta’anit Esther?

This fast comes in contrast with the feasting of Purim to come. In the Purim story, Esther asked Mordechai to ask the Jews to fast for three days. Some texts say this is because they were preparing for battle and others say this was to invoke God’s help and protection.

There are two Hebrew words for fast, Tzom and Ta’anit. The shoresh of Ta’anit is ayin-nun-heh, which connects the fast to invocation (answer) and to humility. When I think of this kind of humility, I imagine it’s an invitation to put ourselves in the bodies and realities of those who are hungry (think of the prohibitions on Yom Kippur, which is a mirror for Purim – no shoes, no eating or drinking, no bathing, annointing or physical intimacy – all of which reinforce humility, discomfort and separation).

Especially before we throw ourselves into merriment and abandon, this fast can be an opportunity to strip ourselves down, to ground, to ask God to prepare us for whatever comes next and to know that even if we can’t hear God’s answer, it is already here.

Here are a couple of chants/songs that could be helpful themes for the fast (really poor recordings attached):
Humble Yourself – Lift Each Other Up

Humble Yourself Humble yourself in the eyes of the (Mother)*
Bend down low and
Humble yourself in the eyes of your Mother
You’ve got to know what S/he/They know/s and
We shall lift each other up
Higher and higher!!
We shall lift each other up
(You’ve got to…) * Father, Brother, Sister, Children, etc.

-Rainbow/Circle song

I call out to You for You will answer me, God

Ani kratich ki ta’aneini El

 אֲנִי-קְרָאתִיךְ כִי-תַעֲנֵנִי אֵל

Ani Kratich
-Psalm 17:6 (melody by Annie Matan Gilbert)

Wishing you a meaningful day!

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Holidays, Vacations, and more!

Originally posted on my blog:

Shalom friends and family! From Rosh Hashanah until Sukkot we were without internet at the house, hence the lapse in blog posts. Anyways, it’s back now (after a long and frustrating process) so I’ll try to summarize everything that’s been happening in my life in the past few weeks.

1) Yom Kippur in Israel… quite the experience. Almost everyone was wearing white, and people walk everywhere in the streets because there are no cars at all on the roads in Jerusalem. Kids were also riding bicycles and scooters… right after Kol Nidre it was absolute insanity and made for some awesome people watching!! One of the highlights of Yom Kippur for me was at the very end of Neilah, after fasting for 25 hours, when we began to sing “L’Shana Haba’ah B’Yirushalaim” (Next Year in Jerusaelm) and realizing that, after 25 years of longing to live in Jerusalem, I was finally here and doing it. Everyone in the room was filled with so much energy and enthusiasm to be there, even after a long day of fasting and praying. It was a wonderful experience. My roommates and I then hosted a break the fast potluck in our backyard and had a great time with our Pardes friends.

2) Tiberius… Since my friends and I couldn’t find cheap travel deals outside of Israel, 5 of us found a relatively inexpensive weekend at a spa in Tiberius (along the Sea of Galilee/Kinneret) and decided to go for a girls’ weekend. It’s about 3 hours away from Jerusalem and is kind of like the Jersey Shore, complete with a boardwalk and disco cruise. It was so interesting… there wasn’t a lot to do there but we explored a local nightclub, drank wine on the beach with Israelis, and generally relaxed and enjoyed the pool for a few days. Here’s a picture of some of us in front of the Kinneret after a long day at the pool!!

3) Sukkot… Sukkot in Israel is really amazing, all over the place little temporary booths pop up – almost every apartment with a porch, balcony, or yard has one, and restaurants build them on the streets for people to eat in for the week. Everyone gets invited to friends’ houses for meals and parties, and it’s a really social holiday. I also got to visit my family in Beitar Illit for a few days while the whole family was in town, so it was really nice. (For my non-Jewish friends: Sukkot is a harvest festival where we construct temporary shelters like the Israelites did in the desert and “live” in them for 7 days.) At the end of Sukkot is Simchat Torah, where we celebrate the end of Deuteronomy and start again at Genesis. There was a lot of revelry and fun to be had by all.

I’ve also discovered the Malkha Mall which is about 10 minutes away by bus… possibly the best/worst thing that could have happened to me this year. Anyways, hopefully my precious Seminoles will recover from our devastating loss and be back on top in no time, and I look forward to making a new blog post in the next few weeks!!

XOXO!!

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Blogging in 5773

Originally posted on Oct. 1:

Two months since I last wrote. It is now 5773 and I am hoping to blog more regularly. Call it a Jewish new year’s resolution!

The Jewish New Year ראש השנה Rosh HaShanah was on September 17 followed by the Day of Atonement יום כיפור Yom Kippur on September 26. All Jewish holidays always start the sundown before the day of the actual holiday for those who are not aware. Tonight, September 30 the holiday called סוכות Sukkot began at sundown. It was amazing to walk around my neighborhood and other nearby areas and see these decorated sukkot (booths) everywhere. In front and behind apartment buildings, on balconies, on rooftops and even in front of businesses on a commercial street. I’m off from school for about a week and a half for the Sukkot break- vacation!

Tonight I also experienced rain for the first time in Israel. It was quite powerful to feel the rain drops through the beautifully decorated top of the סוכה sukkah, covered in date palm branches, other local leafy plants, a few strings of little apple lights and home-made paper balls and chains. It is a beautiful harvest holiday that lasts seven days in which it is a mitzvah to “dwell” in your sukkah, eating meals with invited guests and shaking the four species ארבע מינים arbah minim, see left. Although we had a festive feast of salad, hummus, challah, dolmas, roasted chicken, and kugels, my highlight of the meal was eating lots of pomegranate seeds for dessert, along with some chocolate cake of course. Throughout the meal the rain drops fell upon my plate, head and into my cup.

Earlier in the evening I sat out on my balcony with a friend of mine from my cohort, the group with whom I will be studying for two years- there are six of us all together. We chatted about our weekend trips away- he visited the kibbutz in the south he used to work at for two years and I vacationed with four friends from Pardes at a hotel in Tiberias the north. As we sat there above the two sukkot standing below us in the back of my apartment building, we saw two bunnies jump through the area, one brown and one white. Sometimes I have moments here, well really every day, when I think to myself, “Where am I?” and I remember that I am actually living here… in Jerusalem, in Israel, in the Middle East… half way around the world from Oregon.

It happened also today when I walked on Emek Refaim, a main street nearby, to go to the bank and I passed about seven different tables of young Israeli boys selling the four species: etrog (אתרוג) – the fruit of a citron tree (and smells amazing), lulav (לולב) – a
ripe, green, closed frond from a date palm tree, hadass (הדס) – boughs
with leaves from the myrtle tree, and aravah (ערבה) – branches with
leaves from the willow tree. There are also happy holiday חג שמח chag samayeah decorations all over. The bus reader boards have added חג שמח to their number and destination. There is a festive feeling :)

Now I will share a few random visual highlights of the past two month. In the next blog post I will explain all of my courses that I am taking at Pardes- Sunday-Thursday, 8:30am-5pm, sometimes 8pm, sometimes 9pm, sometimes 7pm… basically I’m spending many hours learning at Pardes!

Left: One of the most beautiful times of day, about 7pm, walking behind my apartment building and looking up and listening to the green parrots.


Right: I discovered organic tofu that is made in Israel in my new favorite store called זמורה אורגני zamora organi. I love this store so much… guess what else they have?!

Julie’s Organic Sorbet made in Eugene, Oregon! So cool, huh?!

Obviously it was very exciting to find this cooler tucked in the back corner by all the goat milks and yogurts that are organic and of course, from the bountiful Israeli dairy industry. Foodie friends, Israeli food is amazing in general but this specialty store of health food, including organic produce, bulk items, mindful cleaning supplies, toiletries, vitamins, supplements and more, is out of this world- I love it! There are two locations, one very close to Pardes and the other near my apartment. I have a club membership there which gives me specials deals and credit back after a certain amount spent.


 

These two pictures were taken as the sun was setting in Tel Aviv, off a one of three balconies at an apartment Abra has been subletting in a funky area called Florentine. I love visiting her and exploring this diverse and thriving city. Even though going to Tel Aviv is a nice get-away from the holy city, I still love living in Jerusalem.

Abra is from Eugene and we are becoming good friends. She and I are both lucky to have cool brothers who are also good friends. While in Tel Aviv she and I have rented bikes and ridden along the beach, watching the glistening Mediterranean waters and all the people out worshiping the sun. 

We ourselves have worshiped the sun with heavy doses of sunscreen and shade breaks, of course. We have also gone shopping in the shuk, visited a Friday arts and crafts fair and ventured into home goods stores in the area where I bought long coral curtains and a small woven rug to brighten my bedroom.

The highlight I will share from my two visits to Tel Aviv includes beer > really good 8% alcohol Belgian beer… One evening, along with my roommate Ellie who was also in town, we discovered a tiny locals’ bar in her neighborhood that only had La Chouffe on tap, the blonde and the dark. It felt like a piece of the Bier Stein in Israel, with a friendly bartender and the correct glassware! Yummy.

In a few days I will travel to briefly visit Abra again in Tel Aviv, go wine tasting in Zichron Yaacov and then visit a family who used to live in Eugene, who live in Ein Hod, an artists’ village in the north. 

להיתראות (liheetraot)
See you later
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The Sukkah as Temporary Temple

During Sukkot, we celebrate God’s hand in the successes of our past years’ produce and of all the work of our hands (Deut 16:15). Before the destruction of the Temple, Sukkot was much more of a raucous, noisy, purely joyful celebration than it is today. However, today, without the Temple and without sacrifice, what remains in our celebration is the importance of the sukkah. But I’ve been compelled to wonder, what’s so important about a sukkah? Yes, our ancestors were made to live in sukkot in the desert, but that can’t be enough. In the modern, post-Temple era, what is a sukkah?

After looking at a few different texts integral to Sukkot, I have come to believe that each sukkah is a little piece of the Messianic Age, and even more importantly, a temporary piece of the Temple itself.

For the megillah of Sukkot, we read Ecclesiastes, where we learn that everything is futile. “That which has been, it is that which shall be; and that which has been done is that which shall be done: and there is nothing new under the sun” (Ecclesiastes 1:9). To Kohelet, human existence itself is like a sukkah, impermanent in nature. So why not, says Kohelet, enjoy what we are given? After all, we have no knowledge of what God expects from us, what God plans for us. We must make the most out of what we have, especially in a temporary structure such as a sukkah, where all people have the ability to come together in joy and leave inequalities and futile problems behind.

In addition, we read parshiyot from Exodus, Leviticus, Numbers, Deuteronomy, Kings I, Zechariah, and Ezekiel. The portions from Leviticus and Numbers focus on the celebration of appointed times for God (the chagim). However, quite out of place from its surroundings, Leviticus 23:22 introduces the concept of peyot: leaving pieces of our harvest for the poor and the stranger. Similarly, the portions from Deuteronomy intertwine mentions of Jubilee and fair treatment for those of different social classes with the celebration of chagim. Once the mention of Sukkot arises, Deuteronomy commands:

You shall observe the feast of booths seven days, after you have gathered in your corn and your wine: and you shall rejoice in your feast, you, and your son, and your daughter, and your manservant, and your maidservant, and the Levite, the stranger, and the fatherless, and the widow, that are within your gates. (Deut 16:13-14)

Without all of the sacrifices that Leviticus, Numbers, and Deuteronomy command, the fair treatment of others, especially under a sukkah, is all that remains. This fair treatment becomes sacrifice, and the sukkah becomes a place where sacrifice is acceptable. Thus, the sukkah becomes a temporary, miniature Temple.

The parshiyot from Exodus and Kings I further the identity of the sukkah with the Temple. In Exodus 33:12-34:26, the reading that occurs during the Shabbat of Chol HaMoed, Moses encounters God’s presence directly (Ex 33:12) and receives the final version of the Ten Commandments. In the readings from Kings I, King Solomon takes the Ark of the Covenant, which contains nothing but those Ten Commandments to the Temple (1 Kings 8:9). Thus, the Temple is completed, and the priests feel the same Presence of God that Moses felt earlier: “And it came to pass, when the priests were come out of the holy place, that the cloud filled the house of HaShem, so that the priest could not stand to minister because of the cloud: for the glory of HaShem had filled the house of HaShem” (1 Kings 8:10-11). As we read about God’s presence in the construction of the Temple, we are reminded of our personal ability, and furthermore, our duty to take steps towards bringing that Temple back. Rather than feeling inhibited by Kohelet’s claim that we have no knowledge of God’s will, we should feel encouraged by Kohelet’s claim that we should enjoy what God has given us. By enjoying our wealth, and that of our neighbors’ from their diverse backgrounds, within the shelter of the sukkah, we create a miniature Temple, a place for sacrifice, worship, and perhaps most importantly, joy in a faith-driven love for God.

Finally, we arrive at the morally challenging readings of Zechariah and Ezekiel. The readings from Exodus and Kings 1 detail the past, the readings from Leviticus, Numbers, and Deuteronomy detail the present, and the readings from Zechariah and Ezekiel detail the future. All can be combined to form a future vision of Jerusalem, the Temple, and the Messianic Age. The readings from Zechariah and Ezekiel detail a Messianic Age in which all other nations worship God or else. Zechariah writes about Sukkot:

And it shall come to pass, that every one that is left of all the nations who came aginst Jerusalem shall go up from year to year to worship the King, the Lord of hosts, and to keep the feast of booths. And whoever does not come up of all the families of the earth to Jerusalem to worship the King, the Lord of hosts, upon them shall be no rain. (Zech 14:16-17)

Must intolerance of other views, then, become part of the sukkat shlomecha that we hear of in “Hashkiveinu”? Must such a view of the Messianic Age become part of God’s sukkah shelter as prescribed in Psalm 27, which we have been reading every day since the beginning of Elul? Perhaps, rather than performing violence on our neighbors, as proposed in Zechariah and Ezekiel, can we achieve the glorious Messianic Age through the civil commandments proposed in Leviticus and Deuteronomy, through the pure love of life proposed in Kohelet. All else is futile, but what if we make our sukkot into havens for peace? Lets make our sukkot into sukkot shlomechot, through which we can gently show our neighbors, even the strangers in our midst, the glory of basking in the midst of God’s Presence, whether or not they call God’s Presence the same name that we do.

For the past few weeks, we have been repeating:

HaShem, HaShem, a God compassionate and gracious, slow to anger, abounding in kindness and faithfulness, extending kindness to the thousandth generation, forgiving iniquity, transgression, and sin… (Ex 34:6-7).

This statement does not disappear on Sukkot but is present in the Torah reading on Shabbat of Chol HaMoed. We spent all of Elul, Rosh Hashanah, and Yom Kippur focusing on teshuva, focusing on joy, repentence, the glory of God’s kingship, and most importantly, on returning. Every year, we hope to return to somewhere beyond where we returned last year, bolstered by our love for God’s attributes and determined to make the most of God’s compassion and fair judgment. Each year, after clearing our souls and preparing them as much as we can, we return to Sukkot.

Perhaps in this year and the following, we can work to make our sukkah a more welcoming, celebratory place each Sukkot. Perhaps, we can work to make our Sukkot little remnants of the Temple, of our ideal Messianic Age. With Sukkot, we can work towards our own, individual, creative notions of Olam HaBa, and we can share those notions with others. Little by little, we can build towards some Sukkot in the future, in which we all create sukkot bursting with so much joy that we’ll overflow our sukkot and contribute to a permanent Temple, a permanent Messianic Age, in which every individual and every nation will be able to worship the God that speaks to them.

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There is nowhere like Jerusalem to celebrate the Chagim!

This post is cross-posted from my Studymoon blog at https://thestudymoon.wordpress.com

Hello!

Shmatan here again. I want to start a new tradition that I actually started on my first day in Jerusalem… Drumroll please…

The cat count!

There are thousands and thousands of cats in Jerusalem! Why you might ask? Well, at some point in the history of Jerusalem, there were thousands and thousands of rats in Jerusalem. Introduce cats and bingo, your rat problem disappears. And thus brings us to a time where there are cats everywhere!

So today is our first cat count = 48

I have a feeling this number will be much much higher by the time Annie and I leave Israel!

So I am writing this post in the midst of the Jewish Holiday of Sukkot, but this is the culmination of weeks of incredible experiences. There really isn’t anything like celebrating the holidays in Jerusalem!

Over Rosh Hashana we had invites to so many people’s places, that we ran out of lunches and nights! One of the people who invited us over was a person that I had known for literally 30 seconds before receiving the invitation. Only in Jerusalem!

But the most amazing experience was on Yom Kippur. In Jerusalem on Yom Kippur, all car traffic, I mean all, is shut down. Hey, why stop at car traffic! TV stations, radio, stores, museums, everything is closed! It is so surreal! Not only does car traffic stop, with the newly open streets, everybody piles out into the street to hang out. I mean, there is nothing else to do but hang out! After Kol Nidre services on Erev Yom Kippur, Annie and I went out to Emek Refaim, and it was completely packed with people! For all those Toronto people reading this blog, think Nuit Blanche packed! It was so weird but amazing at the same time!

It’s hard to believe that it is already Sukkot! Time is flying by so quickly. The best news of all is that Annie is finally, really back on her feet! After 3 rounds of antibiotics, skin creams, and lots of TLC, Annie and I went on our first real walking tour of Jerusalem. After a hairraisiing bus trip down to the shuk (I think our driver was moonlighting at the Indy), and a sprint through the Old City, we made it, just in time, for our tour of the tunnels that run alongside the Western Wall. This experience, was, well, mindblowing… That doesn’t even do it justice really! As a part of this tour, we got to see the entire height of the Western Wall, which must run an additional 20 m BELOW what is currently visible above ground, plus we got to stand at a point that is 97 m from the actual holy of holies that is currently off limits to most people. This is the place in theory where the 10 commandments once were (now they are hidden somewhere!). If anyone is coming here, this is an absolute must! This experience was so incredible, very well worth a brief encounter with razor wire that I had on the way home! Jerusalem is a dangerous place LOL :-)

OK, time for our next adventure, our first mainstream feature film in Jerusalem! Have a wonderful rest of Sukkot everybody!

Love,

Shmatan

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The Distance Between Who We Are and Who We Want to Be

(Cross-posted from my blog)

The morning before Yom Kippur began, I was on a mission to buy food for the “break fast” (specifically borekas and other assorted fattening pastries). The streets were pretty crowded as it seemed everyone had a last-minute mind like myself.

I walked past a woman who was holding a bag full of little toy animal crafts. She stopped me, and told me in Hebrew that she is selling these homemade animal crafts to buy books for her daughters to go to school.

While a compelling story, I said, “Sorry, not today,” and kept going on my way. After all, I was on a mission.

As I bought my food and ran various other errands, I couldn’t stop thinking of this encounter. My slightly-neurotic mind kept replaying the scenario, something like this:

Lauren, why didn’t you stop and at least talk to her a little bit? But what if she was lying, and wasn’t actually buying school books for her daughters? That’s probably it. Maybe she didn’t even make the crafts? Don’t be a sucker. You were in a hurry, and you can’t just help everyone that you see on the street. Besides, she didn’t look like she needed help. You don’t have a lot of spare money to give, anyway. Why are you even still thinking about this?

In the least likely of places, I was hit with my Yom Kippur “aha” moment, something I had spent weeks trying to cultivate.

Too often, I rush from place to place, not noticing what’s around me. Too often, I focus on what I don’t have, rather than the abundance that I do. And too often, I think too much with my over-active brain, rather than my heart.

I went back to the spot where I saw the woman, and purchased one of her tiny crafts. She told me all about her daughters, with a huge smile on her face.

The point of this story is not for you to say, “oh Lauren, what a do-gooder!” because more often than not, I walk past the person on the street. Also, the point is not to say that I should give to every person who needs, an obviously impossible charge.

But this was a unique opportunity to reflect on some resolutions for the new year:

Slow down and take time to look around.
Recognize that I have so much more than I tend to think that I do.
Give people the benefit of the doubt, more often than not.
Be guided a little more with my heart and compassion, rather than my head.

And as a reminder of these resolutions, I have this little giraffe. Cute, eh?:

Wishing everyone a happy, healthy, wonderful New Year!

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Attitude

I credit this quote to Dr. Viktor Frankl, having read his book (a must read), but first heard this idea from my mentor Aryeh Ben David:

Source: google.com via Rocio on Pinterest

 

To paraphrase:

The only thing you can control is your attitude.

Some years ago I was sitting with a teacher, learning about the fast of Tisha B’Av, and trying to come up with reasons for why one might fast. I recalled another lesson – about Yom Kippur – and said, “when we fast, we are like angels because we are forgoing our physical needs.”

My teacher looked at me solemnly, and responded, “that’s on Yom Kippur. Tisha B’Av is different; it is associated with mourning.” 

I was disappointed at being wrong, but more than that – I was surprised. After all, the primary restrictions of Tisha B’Av and Yom Kippur are identical. How could the two major Jewish fast days share the same restrictions, but lead us to different emotional experiences?

For me, the simple lesson of this comparison is that Chazal wanted us to reflect upon the power of our intentions – the major fast days of Yom Kippur and Tisha B’Av are not simply about restrictions – they’re about developing a consciousness around our attitudes.

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Tefillin

Recently, with the help of a teacher and a friend, I have taken on the mitzvah of tefillin. To be honest, I’m not sure when I really started wanting to try it, it’s such a personal experience so it’s hard to say, “I wanted to have this feeling, so I started to wrap tefillin.” But I did want to see what feeling it would give me and if it would enhance my prayer experience. One thing for sure, it helps me focus. When I feel the leather biting into my arm, it brings me back to my prayer and whatever intention I’m trying to have.
Another part that I really like it seeing the lines it leaves on my arms hours later into the day. I don’t know if it’s because I have really soft skin, or I wrap too tightly, but the lines stay on my arms for hours! It’s a really good reminder of being in that place of prayer and still having that concentration while I’m not “praying” anymore. An hour later when I’m contemplating if I have time to help someone, and I see the lines, I’m like…”yes, of course, I’ll help, I just prayed to be a better person!”
I have only be wrapping tefillin for two weeks, so if I have any big spiritual moments, I’ll post more.

This picture was very Erev Yom Kippur. Naomi and I went to Tel Aviv to do a mikvah in the ocean, and we’re praying before we went into the water. It was an AMAZING experience! I felt so pure going into Yom Kippur!

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