Posted on April 23, 2013 by Naomi Bilmes
From my blog:
I really need to write a blog post right now, but I must first overcome many obstacles.
The above statement has two parts. I should know what they’re called because I was an English major, but thankfully, I managed to receive my degree without taking a single grammar class. So, there might be an independent clause, a subordinate clause, a santa clause, or an insanity clause up there and I have no idea. In any case, in response to the first part of the statement, why do I need to write a blog post right now?
There is a surge of vegetables coming down the chimney.
Oh wait, we don’t have a chimney.
Well, if we did, it would be full of gleaming cucumbers, shining tomatoes, bulging beets, and long, moist carrots. They would be chopped fine, sprinkled with salt, pepper, and only the most natural of dressings.
The tangy salad (served with half-a-cup of roasted chickpeas and a handful of slivered almonds) will be eaten in public with absolutely no carbohydrates in sight. The eater will savor every bite of the luscious vegetable medley – in plain view of that terrible pita-eater next to him and in fierce competition with the girl eating sardines and spinach and the alpha male eating a fist-sized steak on a heaping bed of arugula and chard.
The game is on.
A few hours later, the chickpea-eater will snack on an apple.
A few hours later, he will snack on an apple.
A few hours later, he will snack on an apple.
A few hours later, he will start drinking coffee because he is either tired all the time from lack of energy or awake all night using the toilet (the coffee does not help with this). He will wake up the next morning to a breakfast of banana and walnuts. He will embrace the dinosaur within. He will make sure to tell everyone that he is a dinosaur. We will hear him roar. We will be so scared of the dinosaur that we will be frightened into eating heaping bowls of produce and protein. We might even become dinosaurs ourselves.
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I’m the kind of person who gets tired of you easily.
After we make tomato-basil sandwiches, I want you to go home so I can read and digest my food. After we go for a run along the train tracks, I want to sing in the shower and then keep singing – loudly – for a good long time. And after I spend the night at your house, I want to head back to mine so I can eat bananas with peanut butter, cinnamon and soy milk while quietly reading the crinkling news.
Which is why it is odd that I have been enjoying so much social time lately.
Par exemple: On Thursday night, I hosted an evening of the arts for my fellow Pardes students – Salon Pardes, in the truly French style (complete with laissez-faire and tete-a-tete). A small group sat around a cloth-covered, candle-lit table: voices melding in harmony, ears listening to beaten poetry, eyes absorbing color on white, words of story unfolding and sitting in our consciousness; we are warm vessels of pulsing inspiration.
In a room draped with green and lit with glowing tea lights, I look out over the talking, thinking vessels and want none of them to leave (well, except for that guy who sings off key). I crawl into bed feeling people-happy and full of art (not to mention chocolate-covered apple slices).
I close my eyes, drifting… I’m tired, so tired…but not tired of you…well, maybe a little tired of you…but you can come back tomorrow. Just please bring some poetry.
They breathed in
and then breathed no more.
We breathe in and live.
Siren. Wail. Stop. Wail.
The only way to remember is to wail.
Wail in prayer, wail out names, wail out a thank you
(a thank you for life),
wail until your breath is gone and your cheeks are tired and your eyes are wiped and
you are deflated.
The man who once had only half a face stands before you,
telling you how he helped build a state
and how the memory of the searing border haunts him
every day and today.
you walk the hillside, tramping over
grave and grave and grave and another grave.
So many graves.
Numbers upon numbers
upon names upon names
upon broken bodies and broken hearts.
Your heart breaks a little more.
It breaks until your cheeks are tired and your eyes are wiped and
you are deflated.
One hour later,
a room is filled with song; it is filled with people.
Some you know; most you don’t.
They sing and play and throw their harmonies up to the ceiling
and you catch them in your mouth.
You catch them because
you are in the right land at the right time and because
they are standing in the same land as you and because
they have decided that this is the right time
to sing, to love, to show you the rightness of it all.
And within minutes,
the woman on your left has introduced herself and invited you for dinner.
And when the singing is over,
the woman on your right stands up and you tell her that her voice is sweet and right
and when your voice melted with hers
you knew what Israel meant.
This poem refers to the pattern of days known as Yom Hashoah (Holocaust Remembrance Day), Yom Hazikaron (Remembrance Day for Fallen Israeli Soldiers) and Yom Ha’atzma’ut (Israeli Independence Day). These days are “celebrated” all over the world, but only in Israel can one understand their true importance. I know that now.
Banana-Walnut “Pancakes” (no gluten)
Note: These came out pretty dark when I made them, so try to flip them as soon as you can.
Note: These are pretty healthy. They have no added sugar (the bananas make them sweet). Feel free to eat a lot of them. They are yummy. I am a culinary genius. Thank you.
Note: There are no pictures because I ate them all.
I had filled the night
with food I did not want
and a glazed screen
that had nothing to tell me
– except for the color blue.
my eyes pulled down
and my forehead tensed
with the effort of the tired
to squeeze out a few more moments of light.
And the light bruised my eyes
and the food ached my stomach
and the waiting hurt my heart.
And when you walked in,
I said nothing to you.
The hurt flared into anger,
and I said nothing to you.
I hoped you would take my shoulder
and shoot your eyes to my eyes
and make it go away.
Because you did not deserve any anger.
All you did
was not wait for me.
What I did
was much worse.
I told myself a story
about the space behind your heart.
And this story left me waiting